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Jay-Z [Feat. Rihanna/Kanye West] - Run This Town - SINGLE

2009-07-26T06:58:00.000-07:00

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Nip/Tuck OST Theme - A Perfect Lie

2009-07-25T05:01:00.000-07:00

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The Prodigy - SINGLES

2009-07-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

Just give the song a whirl ;) and visit their official website - http://www.theprodigy.com/

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Nightmare Before Christmas Revisited - FAV Tracks

2009-07-05T20:39:00.000-07:00

Marilyn Manson & Tim Skold - This Is Holloween ☠
Evanescence - Sally's Song ☠
Korn - Kidnap The Sandy Claws ☠

Utada - Me Muero

2009-07-05T20:22:00.000-07:00

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One of my favourite tracks in her album; This Is The One. The genre is very jazz-poppy like <3

Apocalyptica - Nothing Else Matters

2009-07-05T20:11:00.000-07:00

This is the song that intrigues me into listening more music from this band :D

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Ashley Tisdale - SINGLES

2009-07-05T08:12:00.000-07:00

Seriously, her songs are not that bad :D Try listening to her singles and if you like them, buy her album :)

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Apocalyptica - SINGLES

2009-07-05T07:10:00.000-07:00

This excellent band from Finland produce a lot of great music with their cellos particularly in Gothic Metal Rock genres. I personally like I Don't Care which has a great impact on me because of the lyrics and the composition of the music alike.

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FEVER...?!

2009-06-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

So, now I'm getting sick all of sudden without warning (not even the usual sore throat..) I'm shaking on my bed..trying to warm up my body. I'm using the fan atm at speed ! (the lowest level) and yet I still feel COLD! :( My feet especially are cold as ice..I warm it up with my jacket. LOL. I'm too lazy to even take out my socks..so weak..

Anyways, as the revisions are going on..I hope I can ace everything regardless of this fever :( I don't want to resit anymore..nauzubillah..so I'm working so hard and SMART and just don't let the fucking fever gets me :'| it's just painful studying in this condition :(

I just pray to Allah to assist me in any way <3>

Vintage Black Gothic

2009-05-31T04:00:00.001-07:00

Black Room by babalisme featuring Balmain accessories

LadyGaGa - SINGLES

2009-05-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

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Here are her latest singles:

Paparazzi

LoveGame [Robots to Mars Remix]

Art of Darkness

2009-05-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

These are things that I wish I could buy or given for free (if possible :P)

Amber andle by Acqua Di Parma
Black resin bracelet by Yves Saint Laurent
Tokyo Street GOTHIC blazer & bracelet
Black rose
w995 (Black or Red)
Wallet (Black) by Maison Martin Margiela

ps: i find the mixture of dark purple & black are quite elegant with a dark sense.

Evanescence - Missing

2009-05-26T10:30:00.001-07:00

It's quite true...ya noe..

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Please, please forgive me,

But I won't be home again.

Maybe someday you'll look up,

And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:

"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -

You forgot me long ago.

Am I that unimportant...?

Am I so insignificant...?

Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]

Even though I'm the sacrifice,

You won't try for me, not now.

Though I'd die to know you love me,

I'm all alone.

Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,

But I won't be home again.

I know what you do to yourself,

I breathe deep and cry out,

"Isn't something missing?

Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,

Knowing you don't care.

And if I sleep just to dream of you

I'll wake without you there,

Isn't something missing?

Isn't something...

[Chorus]

Darren Hayes - So Beautiful

2009-05-26T09:42:00.000-07:00

all time fav <3

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Whether I'm right or wrong

There's no phrase that hits

Like an ocean needs the sand

Or a dirty old shoe that fits

And if all the world was perfect

I would only ever want to see your scars

You know they can have their universe

We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know

You make me feel so beautiful

Nowhere else in the world I wanna be

You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down

There's no crowd to please

I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it

And if all the world was smiling

I would only ever want to see your frown

You know they can sail away in sunsets

We'll be right here stranded on the ground

Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful

Nowhere else in the world I wanna be

You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions

I have drowned in your words

I have left my confusion to a cynical world

I am throwing myself at things I don't understand

Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are..

So Beautiful

Yeah darlin' you know!

That you make me feel so beautiful nowhere else in the world i wanna be

Yeah you made me feel so beautiful

Bullet For My Valentine - All This Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me)

2009-05-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

Can you just relate yourself to the lyrics? Cause I can :( Another song that I just love to hear and have a deep thought about my life.....

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Once more I'll say goodbye to you
Things happen, but we don't really know why
if it's supposed to be like this
why do most of us ignore the chance to miss
oh yeah

Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like

Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before i snap

Once more you tell those lies to me
Why can't you just be straight up with honesty (honesty,honesty)
When you say those things in my ear
Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear (wana hear,wanna hear)
oh yeah (yeah!)

Wear your heart on your sleeve make things hard to believe
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like

Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see! (me)
Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap

Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me
(it's the best place to be when you're!)

Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see (Me)
Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap

Robin Thicke - Singles

2009-05-25T09:30:00.001-07:00

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Robin Thicke - I love listening to his songs since he has the jazz touch and R&B at the same time. I came to know this artist when I listened to his single - Magic, which is very retro funky and modern <3

Static-X - Cold

2009-05-25T09:11:00.000-07:00

This band just rocks!

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September - Cry For You

2009-05-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

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This song...you just got to listen <3

Shane Mack - Lie To Me

2009-05-25T08:51:00.000-07:00

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This song is quite laid-back. The song is one of the original soundtrack from a gay indie movie - Shelter, which has won few awards in 2007. I've watched this and it was alright surprisingly..now I leave that to all of you to judge how good the movie is..eheh

Kerli - Singles

2009-05-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

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Here are her two hits singles:

Walking on Air (my favourite)
Love is Dead

.my first iTunes redeem card.

2009-05-22T10:50:00.000-07:00

The Cover

The Inside

I bought this thing yesterday for BND$55 instead of BND$58 because I have the account already. Finally, I can buy shits from iTunes store. Yeaah..but it's only valid for US iTunes store. I can't use it for my UK account. Kinda sucks since not all songs from US are available like in UK. Anyways, I know it is way much cheaper downloading from other sites or torrenting but I just wanna feel that 'legal' feeling for a while. If I'm tired with buying these cards, I might go back to downloading from other people's sites. hah..whatever..btw, when U see my title contains [iTunes], it means that I bought the songs from the US iTunes store. I wonder if someday those apple people could make a card that can download anything for a month or such~~hmm..

Kerli - Heal [iTunes]

2009-05-22T10:14:00.000-07:00

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I finally purchased Kerli's album today from iTunes US store. I know her album has been out since end of last year (2008) but I couldn't buy it. But now I'm happy to own her album LEGALLY! Plus, I have her Digital Booklet made by iTunes. I'm looking forward for her next album! In case if you guys haven't heard anything about her, she's an Estonian singer and her songs are mainly a mixture of dark yet still possess such a positive output from it. So, here is a bonus track from her album Love Is Dead. Other than that, the songs that I recommended are Love is Dead, Walking on Air and Bulletproof(one of the OST of the Punisher 2)

ps: the artworks are partially from the digital booklet.

Marilyn Manson - Arma-Goddamn-M**********n-Geddon [iTunes]

2009-05-22T09:16:00.000-07:00

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Mann..I love his song so much! This is a single released by him prior to his upcoming album - The High End of Low on May 26th.

Mariah Carey - Right To Dream [iTunes]

2009-05-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

In here, she expressed the song with her powerful voice and it is absolutely amazing!

Elliot Yamin - Fight For Love [iTunes]

2009-05-22T06:38:00.001-07:00

This man is pretty much talented as U can listen to this FANTASTIC song from his new album! U gotta listen to this shit..I love this song so much!

Dream Theater - Stargazer [iTunes]

2009-05-21T22:12:00.000-07:00

Great fucking song!

Trey Songz - I Need A Girl [EP] [iTunes]

2009-05-21T10:18:00.000-07:00

One of my FAVVV artist - Trey Songz. This is one of his latest EP. Great great songs.

Tracklists:

I Need A Girl
Brand New
In Ya Phone

AutoCad 2009

2009-05-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

So, here I am in the dining room fucking with my lappy doing my shits with the program AUTOCAD. The program is very very and I MEAN extremely complex for the beginner or I'm too dumb to take it..anyways, I'm not that great in giving up..I THINK..haha..fuck..anyways, I've found this great book or so from the net since I was soooo kneeling on my knees to finish my assignment. From what I've read, the this PDF book is quite good actually. Anyways, its up to individuals to even consider the greatness of the holy book..eheh.. :D

-AutoCad 2009 for Dummies- (click HERE if U R the dummy..I am since I have it..)

BEP - Imma Be

2009-05-19T18:24:00.000-07:00

IMMA BE

Next single of BLACK EYED PEAS! I absolutely love this song than BOOM BOOM POW!

This single is available in US iTunes store.

Alexander Rybak - SINGLES

2009-05-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

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"Fairytale" is a 2009 song written and composed by Norwegian violinist/singer Alexander Rybak, and the first single from Rybak's debut album Fairytales. This song was the winner of the 2009 Eurovision Song Contest in Moscow, Russia.

I find this single very catchy from the beginning because of the violin. After all, he won the Eurovision contest~:D

Taylor Swift's SINGLES

2009-05-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

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A fine looking woman who chose country as her main genre in her music. I absolutely love listening to her songs especially when I clean my room..You Belong To Me is not bad.

Please leave some comments :)

Do buy her original album - Fearless. A fantastic album to own!

Modjo - Lady (Hear Me Tonight)

2009-05-18T08:50:00.000-07:00

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This song is very old school. I can never get tired from listening this shit. Once I listen, I feel like in the 90s again. The feeling is inexplicable. LOL. Well, I do hope you guys enjoy listening to Modjo as much as I do :)

Still Doll - Wakeshima Kanon

2009-05-18T08:39:00.000-07:00

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Wakeshima Kanon is another talented artist who debuted with this single, Still Doll for the

ending theme for anime series, Vampire Knight.

This song is very very haunting and I LIKE IT!.

Source: Wikipedia

Please support the artist by buying their original album!

Tommy February6 SINGLES

2009-05-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

Tommy February6 or Tomoko Kawase(her real name) has the cutest voice I ever heard. Her music is mainly into rock with a touch of electropop into it. Lonely In Gorgeous is used as a soundtrack in japanese anime, Paradise Kiss. Both singles below are addictive..at least to my ears.

★

♥

The Ting Tings's SINGLES

2009-05-18T05:50:00.000-07:00

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.Buying music thru' iTunes.

2009-05-18T04:58:00.000-07:00

I always wanted to buy songs legally. Collecting all those original CDs and all. I dunno. I AM FUCKING AWARE THAT IT IS WAYYYYYYYYY FUCKING EAASY TO JUST DOWNLOAD IT through TORRENTS or BLOGS. Yeah..Spending $$$ for my favourite artists are satisfying. I don't feel cheated or loss.

But I can't do it atm since I don't have any money. Maybe NEXT MONTH XD. *finger crossed*

I will share my MP3s with you shitters out there of course :)

Kate Voegele's SINGLES

2009-05-18T04:24:00.000-07:00

♪

All of these singles are from her 2009 album A FINE MESS. Personally, 99 Times KICKED ASS!!! The rest was so-so but her album is moderately amazing for me :)

PLEASE SUPPORT THE ARTIST BY BUYING THE ALBUM - A FINE MESS!

AUTOCAD = automatically DONE :D

2009-04-07T05:57:00.001-07:00

After an aeon of torturing clicking here and there and modifying my drawing, this particular assignment is DONE!

AUTOCAD - FINISHED

My next target is DOING the HYDROLOGY ESSAYS ... God, essay is such a lengthy task to do
therefore, I need to plan on what to do with this assignment.

CHOOSE WORDS/LAYOUTS
RESEARCH
ORGANIZE MATERIALS

wow....essays~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Btw, have you guys hear the song Jai Ho! by Ar Rahman and Pussycat Dolls? quite energetic and bollywood-like to hear especially the beats and all~~:D

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AutoCad in the HEAD continues...

2009-04-06T19:14:00.000-07:00

I'm almost done with the internal part of the drawing except for the ATTRIBUTES section..
found a webbie on how to do it yet I'm still confounded by the techniques

Well, I decided not to do it until I finish with the house part...I have to go to the JPMC after this and oh boy ... I hope I got enough time to do all my homework as my granma always and I MEANT ALWAYS want to bring her out .... eventhough she gives me money .. but it doesn't feel worth it if you're feeling tired and grumpy afterwards ...

or ....

AutoCad in the head~~~!

2009-04-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

I was doing one of my assignment, as the title goes..THE AUTOCAD assignments..when I realized that my dimensions were all messy! :-| as much as I wanted to tear the monitor, I calmed myself down...think rationally and BREATHE normally..and just do it again...with a big grin on my face :-) for the second time...IT WENT WRONG AGAIN! :-| :@ oh .. what a dumb luck I was dealing with tonight :s

I wonder what causes luck to occur or SHOULD I BELIEVE in this LUCK or is it FATE? :o But I do believe in MIRACLES though..I read from Reader Digest long ago that if we feel lucky..we will get lucky .. did try that one but rarely succeed.. :-\ I wonder if you guys ever experience that feeling?

wallahuaklam :D

when SEMESTER BREAKS attack!

2009-04-06T04:20:00.001-07:00

Finally after FULL MONTHS of all the studying and staying up late with the help of CAFFEINE..the breaks are finally caved in~~~

BUT ... despite the excitements of waking up late or sleeping late at nights watching DVDs or gossipping with the mates, bla bla bla..THERE ARE LISTS OF ASSIGNMENTS to be done ... therefore, I do need to finish this ASSIGNMENTS by the end of this week or I will definitely in a very VERY and EXTREMELY FOUL AND UGLY mood towards the end of the semester breaks (20/04) :-|

These are the assignments that have been assigned to us:

HYDROLOGY - Essays
SOIL MECHANICS - Reports + MiniProject
CONSTRUCTION TECHNOLOGY - Mini Report
PUBLIC HEALTH ENGINEERING - Tutorials
AUTOCAD

well, as far as I remember...these are the lists. NOTE: eventhough some are 'MINI', they are not that MINI as it looks like =______='

Bored...

2008-10-07T08:31:00.000-07:00

So much for what has happened recently ESPECIALLY with the RAYA celebration...PALOI lah~attachment lagi mcm GILA ja rasanya~not to mention the FEEL of anguish and resentment...........ugh..diri lagi nda tejaga..adui~

*dead*

文楽-BUNRAKU

2008-09-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

GENERAL

This is a doll or a puppet used in a Japanese Puppet Theater know as BUNRAKU [文楽] or Ningyō jōruri [人形浄瑠璃].

It is a classic art orginated in Osaka back in 1872.

Basically, there are THREE performers:

Ningyōtsukai or Ningyōzukai - Puppeteers
Tayū - the chanters
Shamisen players

The puppeteer can be more than one who controlled the puppet:

The omozukai control the right hand side of the puppet using his right hand.
The hidarizukai or sashizukai manipulates the left hand side of the puppet with a control rod that extends back from the elbow of the puppet with his right hand.
the ashizukai, operates the feet and legs.

The puppeteers wear hooded black ropes on stage but they can perform unhooded, which the performance known as dezukai.

If any of you aware, this type of theatre can be linked to KABUKI performance. Kabuki plays by actors whereas Bunraku deals with puppets. Kabuki is a performer's theater while Bunraku is an author's theater. Bunraku is famous for the story of lovers' suicide plays.

If you watch their graceful and life-like movements, it is hardly to imagine that they are being control by 3 people. To achieve that effect, it will take YEARS of training and efforts for them to work in perfect harmony.

The drama, Yoshitsune sembon-zakura, was first performed in 1749. A historical tale of warfare, jealousy, and love, with a beautifully choreographed dance sequence, it tells the story of the dashing hero, Minamoto No Yoshitsune.

The most famous bunraku playwright was Chikamatsu Monzaemon. With more than one hundred plays to his credit, he is sometimes called the Shakespeare of Japan.

Bunraku companies, performers, and puppet makers have been designated "Living National Treasures" under Japan's program for preserving its culture.

So much can be browsed through wikipedia.
A video example can be viewed here.

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Don't you think it looks like ventriloquism? I've been browsing for it and it looks like ventriloquism originated from GREECE, known as gastromancy (Greek: εγγαστριμυθία). They use it for the dead to tell its story through the puppet as I understand it.

Also, if you are a MAJOR FAN of NARUTO, do you know Kankuro? He uses a puppet as his weapon, right?
Well, I do WISH that this kind of classic art-BUNRAKU, could perform in Brunei

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I'm interested in this classical art after I watched this anime, Master Puppet Sakon.

Sakon with his puppet, Ukon (what a name~~LOL)

Honestly, I this anime! The genre is THRILLER. The protagonist solves mysteries, murders and horrific crimes. If you guys love detectives story, you should watch this anime. It is how he solved the mysteries that intrigues me and the puppets as well.

Have a great day peepz
PS: If I have incorrect information, feel free correct it.. I'm a human for heaven sake, not a saint..hehehe

a girl named AYAI

2008-09-12T09:24:00.000-07:00

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Now playing: Leona Lewis - Dip Down (Troy Taylor Remix)
via FoxyTunes

Gambar my beloved CUPUR a.k.a AYAI

heh heh..LULUI usulnya ahhhh~~~~~~

ano bah...pasal ea ane..*astagapar banyak2* seriously..*astagapar LAGI* rasa kan di

hahaha..takdelah~ ea ane seriously, is the MOST unik person I ever met..seriously..na rugi la kamu kawan ma kadia ..

GENERAL

Cna buleh betamu sama bisdia?
Cemana ahh~~~?? Na plang ku ingat..haha but we somehow kunik mcm internet..p sentiasa ON. Mcm2 lah cerita kami dulu toh..ada la sikit cemburu sma EX BF nya dulu..hahaha *oppsss* sal SIUK la sma ea ne~dari in person..dulu payah2hn kejumpahan..p I think kejumpahan pat Mall Arcade x..tipikal tmpat ato..*borrreengg* LOL..

HUBUNGAN
hubungan kami amat bagus lah..menat pun sama la jua..terhadap JEPUN..p EATAH DULU KE SNA msane!!!!!!!!!!

P alhamdulillah lah ea d sna menimba pengalaman yang enak..gpun di Bunai ane..I know ea pun mcm tekurung jua rsany..*sigh* BUT I'm happy for you girl~~~

PERANGAI

selalu ja happy dari luar
pandai la jua kuar air mata kadang2 . hahaha
very tomboyish yet mseh feminine..i lurrvveeee
good looking girl, and I meant it literally
nice voice bila menyanyi..buleh la jua menyertai pertandingan nyanyian yg di Bunai ane..apa namanya? .. aaaaa .. P2F? LOLOLOLOLOL
suka kana tease..I like to tease her..hohohohohohoho [I hope ea lupa pa daku buat pada ea dulu]

well..thats for now dulu

I will talk more about this very very greatest bestest loveliest gayest friend everrrr!

I always LAP U to d ujungnya~~~~~

ps: ada tu link nya kat sebelah~[aYai]

Free Flower

2008-09-12T08:45:00.000-07:00

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Now playing: Shane Mack - Lie To Me
via FoxyTunes

Today, my family and I have gone out for sungkai outside..nothing much happened..lots of walking though..and shopped a bit..lots of the stuffs out there are really FEXPENSIVE!!!

The thing that interest me was this flower that the BODY SHOP gave for free hahaha..well, I like FREE stuffs..they gave it when my sister bought this lipbalms, which comes in pair.

The 'fake' FLOWER and the lipbalm

I take one of the lipbalms though as it is free and my lip is always dry~hohoho..anyways, the money that they received will be donated to charity for domestic violence.

The blue tag above says, "BREAK THE SILENCE ON DOMESTIC VIOLENCE", "TALK TO A FRIEND".

That is really intriguing. There are LOTS of domestic violence going on and I'm sure it happens nearby but well-hidden. I hope those who have been abused will talk out about it cause they are not the only one who experience such brutality.

I'm a guy. I will get marry sooner or later. Majority of the abusers are MALE species. But, if I ever get married, I won't do anything abrasive to her.

I enjoy watching violence film. But, I don't think it will have any effect on how I will treat her. I wonder what causes such violence to occur?

If you guys have any ideas or comment anything related to DOMESTIC VIOLENCE. Feel free to comment We all have different ideas and opinions and I love to read them. heh heh..

Peace.

R.I.P

2008-09-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

Today was very much enjoyable until my FIRST PET EVER!, which is a hamster actually...died in a tragedy which was cause by my own carelessness ~~~~

I was about to change their beddings and food. I put all of them into this one cute irregular container but has a little opening on top. Having experienced with that thing before, I didn't anticipate any MISHAPS...AGAIN DUE TO MY FREAKING CARELESSNESS!!!!! I was too confident enough back then..

I really love that black hamster, which I named it "ICKY" hehehe..Whenever I called it like "Iccckkyyyyyyyy~~~~~~" with a bit of tune..it would respond immediately and look into my eyes directly...I am going to MISS that moment...........

Anyways, when I was in the toilet cleaning their mess, suddenly my friend SHRIEKED about something and of course, I was startled and immediately rushed to see what had happened.
What I saw was this:

MY FRIEND'S CAT SOMEHOW MANAGED TO GRAB ITS FOUL MOUTH INTO THAT HAMSTER'S CONTAINER!

Icky was bitten terribly by that FELINE..
Icky was on ITS MOUTH unable to escape!
I slapped the cat's face but it didn't scared at all until I shouted manically that it let go of my POOR ICKY..
...
Icky was then laid on the floor..ultimately paralyzed..As I saw Icky, I prayed for miracles but it was futile. Icky was a goner. It just laid there.....numb...DEAD.
Did I cry?
No.
Why?
I don't know ....
Maybe I was too shocked as the incident was abrupt.
My friend grabbed Icky with a towel..
I just stay quiet and looked at it...
....
I brought Icky home.

BRIEF HISTORY
Initially, Icky lived at my house but my parents BANNED me from having a pet at home because of their FOUL ODOUR.
What can I do?
I just let my dear friend to take care of it since he has lots of hamsters as well. I guessed it was for the best. I did visit Icky quite often and changed their beddings.

Now, Icky's GONE.

There won't be any respond like Icky whenever I said, "Ickkkkkyyyy~~~~~~"

I just hoped that Icky will rest in peace with the other dead hamsters.

Here are the pictures of its funeral today.

aftermath

before being buried

another glimpse before the END

...goodbye ICKY

...and Im sorry for being reckless to U cause you had the chance to explore this world much longer if it wasn't for my carelessness ....

大好き/Like/Love

2008-08-02T09:11:00.002-07:00

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Now playing: Duffy - Stepping Stone
via FoxyTunes

How complex it can be when you like someone. . . . :(

These are some of the lists that I feel whenever a cupid hits me with his stupid love arrow directly into my rotten heart :f

:L

Euphoric
Able to do something unexpectedly
Positive
Smiling always
Don't care about others (contrary to selfish)

or

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angry
jealousy
insecure
sad
tears
gloomy
low self-confidence

etc.

Have you noticed that there are a lot of negative things that may occur?

It is really depressing actually. I feel it. Some people can get these feelings away so easily and just go on with their life but luck rarely comes into me.. :c I don't know~

Love is for the weak minded, ey?

Maybe..

I guess I AM a person with an extremely weak minded. Not only that. I have an issue with my myself.

Mainly....confidence.

I have read a few books about self-help though they don't seemed to work with myself. I guess I'm allergic to them...

Honestly, I am a temperamental type of guy.

That is just me. I did try to control myself. Not by drugs or any therapy. NO~! Just a battle with my own 'weak' mind.

It hurts :(

It always does...

I wonder when it will ever end..

In the end..

I don't even care...

. . .

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2008-08-01T07:40:00.000-07:00